graduation

IM GRADUATING

17 December at 6:00pm

beat you all lolol

well actually i geuss not confirmed until i get my final restuls on december 10 lol

but yeh lol

re meetup

so like on second thoughts id like to study for the week so dont think ill make meetup this week lol.

to gamble

gambling is bad.

the game doesn't change, its only your mind that changes and feels confident/unconfident.

when you panic, shit fucks up and you die.

prepartion is imperative if you want to walk out alive and well.

the rules you set yourself must be abided by, and you must not forget them either.

it should not be a hope, a lifeline. it should be a luxury.

risk and return, risk and return.

the time value of money comes to play, that thought, and the consequent confusion and panic. The misundersatnding, the inexperience. money has a time value, speed you earn, speed you loose, relatively speaking, losing it is so much fuckign faster. thankfully, there are barriers to prevent further losses lol. but that winning feel, that adrenaline, the accomplished feel, although foolish, is so euphoric.

the compensation for your risk sounds so enticing. yet its the RISK that holds this heavy burden if you do incur it, whereby there is a GREATER chance you incur it.

A stable job first lol. before anything :D

I do not seek redemption lol.

Champions aren't made in gyms. Champions are made from something they have deep inside them: A desire, a dream, a vision. They have to have late minute stamina, they have to be a little faster, they have to have the skill and the will. But the will must be stronger than the skill.

- Muhammad Ali

work model

today was a good example of burn out.

if today was a model, it could describe my attitude towards a semester.

well i woke up late, lets exclude that. i got up at like 12. and then did 1 tute work, then ate lunch then did another tute work. now althoguht this tute work wasn't done hardcore sit down and do only tutework, i ended up finishing at like 4 or 5. which is like representing me having other things rather than school.

and then i read my lecture slides, and my computer fucking went really laggy and that was pretty annoying. and that just tlaks about the tehcnological problems i have every semester. and because reading my lecture slides were pretty slow, and like i skipped some of it, it represents me skipping class, and like yeh slowly burning out.

so then i start surfing the net and just procrastinating in general. that is just burn out.

oh forgot to mention i applied for jobs before reading the second lecture. so that represents me having other things to do, more important that school during the semester. lol

and at theend after my shower, i just ceeb and continue surfing, even though i shoudl've done some writing on my 20k report. that probablly represents... my ceebness.. like the 20k report was my goal. originally i wanted to work on it. and it can represent exams. so basically im just sleeping on it tonight, saying i'll do it tomrorow. lol pushing things, i think theres a technical term, but yeh.

i reckon its a fair representation of my appraoch to a semester at uni lol.

melbun marathon volutnerr

had to leave my house at 4:15am today to volunteer, epic luls.

there was no milk in my fucking fridge. i was quite upset.

so i ate two banans

and grabbed a juice box.

it was pretty cold outside not like chattery cold. but chilly cold. lucky wasn't super windy.

but yeh.

skills utilised today include:

stamina. for standing so freaking long

teamwork with other people in my team; we were teh clothes storage unit for competitors to deposit their bags/stuff before the race and pick up afterwards.

communication to tell them about whats happening, and what to do

enthusiasm for smiling and wishing them luck and then congratultating them.

i woudlnt' mind running the 10km next year

or even half marathon lol

some of the runners are so freakn skinny its like they're purely trained in just their respirotaroy system coz they obviously lack any bulk.

there was were decent chicks as well. it was good.

henry's birthday

i think to celebrate your birhtday, god gave us a day of sun and rain to symbolise

the broad range of love people have for you.

lol yes thats how it shoudl be interpreted.

lols applying randomly

lol today i had this presentation for my business practicum subject; the one with 60% 20k report due at the end no exam.

and the presetnation was 10%

and i had it all memorised and shit, and then i had like this 3 second memory blank during it. and it was gg lol

anyway we had a group meeting afterwards, and one of my group members had applied for this hsbc role in hk as a management graduate program of some sort lol and she said she was juts applying for fun, and i was like well since group meeting is in like 1 hour, i'll apply for fun as well. lol

so i just apply simple process my resume wasn't even up to date, but you can update it on your profile, and it was submitted!

2 minutes later i get this email telling me to complete this attitude test, im like cool! lol so i do that which has like 50 random questions from shl regarding attitude stuff, really random.

lol

and then soon after i get another test to complete! im like lol wtffffff. coz my friend it took her 3 days to get her test.

so i go home and do the english verbal reasoning one. my friend got up to there and said that they will just randomly clal her, and it was strange she didn't get the numerical one. and guess wha i got the numerical one as well. im like wtfffff lol.

it was pretty lols. my hopes still aren't high, as these position that i applied for is open to all international studesnt(non hk) so thats like massive competition lol.

but whatevers for fun! lol it was pretty epic lol. epic surprise.

but other job shits are just fails. i shoudl concentrate more on my studies lol

ticket incident

So i was catching the train to ashburton. and because i was feeling all model citizen and shit i decided to validate my ticket on the way there my 2 hour. this was like 3 oclock. and i was like ok i'll validate it.

and it said it woudl expire at 6.

so thats all good and shit.

on my way back. lol i caught like some 6:08 from ashburton and was like sigh what are the chances that ticket inspectors will be there and shit righ.

but its a friday. i.e. everone travles out to the city on friday, and they love to catch large populations and shit.

so on the platform i was like chills and stuff and i actually saw 3 suited people 2 male 1 female on the platform watchign people play tennis. and just when i got on the train i was like HOLY shit they're ticket inspectors. lol i coudl see their shiny badge, so i quickly walk into the next carriage instead, lucky i was in the middle sorta. and one of the male ones stayed at the door to watch the poeple get on. i hoped he did not sense me being suspcisious lol.

so i was liek fuck fukc fukc lol

so there was like 5 minutes of anxiety before the train pulled into camberwell. during which i decided to move down further into the carriage, and at the first stop, i even opened the door to peek out and see if he was coming so i could do a runner. lucky nothing happened.

and then when i reached camberwell i was a bit more relaxed, and then i thought please don't be inspectors at the doors. buti was chilled coz usually the one on the right is the largest one, for bikes and stuff and usually it sjust open anyway.

and i was halfway up the ramp with everyone going up and shit, and then i was like oh wtf its closed? and i quickly pretend im on the phone lol and then i even see a ticket inspector, so no jumping over or going closely behind for me. fuck fuck fuck.

lol

and then quickly call jack to tell him my dilemma.

and then decided to cach the next train (in 3 minutes) to auburn the next station up, where i coudl easily ride back from there.

and then this train towards lilydale arrives, and like a billion peopl get out and shit, and i remember how in flinders they usually just let you through because theres so many , and they don't want traffic jams and shit, so they'll just open that gate if you just show them yoru ticket. and this idea formed in my mind. coz i was in the risk averse mood lol.

so the next train towards flinders arrived and i was like ok im gonna do this. but then only lik 5 people got off lololol and iw as like fuck it ceeb. and i walked up the ramp with my bike.

and then i pulled my wlalet out, and then when i got to the place, i just whiped my ticket outand showed the guy,

at that moment i realised, theres so little people i probalbly would nomally just validat the fuckgin ticket, and i was like shittt. and then the ticket i showed him wasn't even a validated ticket, lol and i was liek "oh shit" and pulled out the validated ticket, and showed him, and i was like omgogmogmogmogmogg inside. lol

so i don't know whether it was because he didnt' read it properly, or because he felt nice, or because he didn't what time it was, or because he thought it hadn't expired yet, but either way he must've had some suspicion over the fact that i didn't simply put it in the machine and he let me through, and at that moment so many thoughts were going throguh my head. it was prety fuckgin crazy lol

so now i just assume it was because he thought it was around 6, or something like that, and just let me through. lol

but dam. lol.

at least i saved the ride back from auburn lol.