we are all gambling!

lol
at what the more info bit says
lol cheating for asians is part of gambling!!
lol
btw the subtitles is wrong its meant to be lowest score wins

anyways
i was thinking
everyone is gambling.
or lets say living with risk.
risk of what? risk of death.
i live today thinking i can do something tomorrow because i will still be alive to do it.
i live today thinking i can do something in the future because i will still be alive to do it then.
but if i die tomorrow, then i can't do it, so i lose! lol well lose is a very loose term, but yeh
now although it is a slim risk, there is still the risk.
if i die before i have done what i wanted to do, well it doesn't really matter since im dead, and i don't believe in retaining my conscience after death; but the underlying thing is that today i gambled with myself, saying i'll do this later, hoping I will still be able, still have the chance to do whatever it is i wanted to do.

no i am not emo in case you wonders lol.
i was just thinking lol

anyway
at the same time
one can say that
thats life, nothing is for certain anyways, and if your relgious, it'll just be yeh whatever it was meant to be or what not.

but also we cannot ignore other factors, i mean there are obivously reasons why we delay things; timing being one of them. Timing like buying stocks or timing when to go holidays, things which can't be done right now, well can be, but there may be factors preventing your conscience from being at peace such as money and environmental issues.
and thus we push forward what we do.
but with that push foward, we are again taking the risk that the stocks will be cheaper to buy, the holidays prices will be cheaper, the weahter will be nicer, the "timing" will be more right.
we are in fact taking a risk with every decision.
i mean even if i bought something now, i'd be taking the risk that, oh yeh it won't get any cheaper/i won't be able to get my hands on thsi next time etc.

i think it relates to your goals and shit.
if you are not goal oriented, annd just "living" thats also fine, but maybe thats a loophole, coz in that way you won't be taking any risks. because your just "living" and not aiming for something, which can be changed by time.
but "living"... lol thats another tangent
back to this time thing.
this morning i was doing stances for training,
and god it pained and tired, and the watch was ticking, and i was counting the time, it was like for a minute. anyway, i was counting: 18,19,20, . (silence) ; where the fuck is 21!!!!! at that very moment i was like OMG!. but right after that 22 came back, and that made me think lol
my reaction towards the sudden impediment in the "time", lol this disucssion can go a long way . nah fuck it lol cbb.

anyway
see right ther, i just took the risk that i would have an opportunity to talk about 'time' again, sometime later in the future, the risk that i won't forget!, but if it was that important then i wouldn't forget, and that also links to goals and aims.
but that has some dirty link with the infamous "purpose of life" lol
which is just too murky to touch.
but yes, enough of thinking for now, im going to watch some stephen chow lol