stinginess

with this in mind, my whole life will change.

3 days until next year

Job hunting. once again will begin tomorrow

actuallyi'll make it after new years. that way it'll be psychologically starting "fresh"

lol

instead today i caught up on naruto anime (2 eps), umm lol and then. played with lightroom a bit, attached another monitor to my laptop so i can have two screens for better like looking. i think i watched a movie. can't remember. no i didn't watch a movie today. yeh and then continued on to start googling ow to use lightroom. video tutorials rock. lol but usually you hav to pay for it.

but its basically just like a lecture at school. excpet its free, and its limited, unless you pay, or find free ones lol

and yeh was looking through my europe pictures, and also thinking about how i shoudl present my photos lol. like what exactly i want to get across to the audience, whethere there IS an audience or not, etc. coz even for myself i have to organise it in a way which is nicely accessible but yeh. so i have to decide whether the originals stay in their original files, then i have lightroom to mange them. in a way lightroom is similar to picasa, i believe it (lightroom) is much better, with much more functions which make it at the start more confusing lol. but yeh will have to think about that. i wanna get all this stuff sorted, since my photos will accumulate as time passes, and if i dont' think of some way to manage them besides jsut copying them all and listing them in "folders", i still need to edit the ones which have say a light which I didn't like. ALthough yes, I previously would argue that its just art which has been directly taken from the camera, which is all good and stuff, but with this technology I have acquired, I feel that i can make it into a better piece of art to my liking. like if some people in the picture had a "red eye", then one can definitely call it art that they have red in their eyes, but obviously in an "objective" view thats just a weak camera or whatever.

its like how the mind evolves, and art will also evolve. from describing something as art, which indeed it is, but then evolving due to new perspectives, simply wanting to develop that art with these digital editing programs, it is still art.

lol was just seeing if i had the abiliity to argue that poitn in words. i gues noone really cares anyway.

program

went on bt last night and found adobe lightroom 3

installed that. when i have time will play with that stuff, heard good things about it quite excited.

also did some research (by research i mean wikipedia/google) on video editing programs. ended up bting adobe premiere pro cs4. cs5 woudl've been too gangder for my computer and my level of usesage lol. infact the pro is already too gangder, elements would've probalbly been better. well i dled another video editor, but installed premiere pro. Apparently its used by like hardcore movie makers and has been used to make movies, and other shows (once again according to wiki).

The downside of course is my computers rather old age, its RAM capacity is not enough nor is its processors speed. which is quite disappointing I guess, since something like windows media player, if that shit gave me lag, then im pretty sur esomehting like adobe woudl give me even more lag.

but yeh one thing i noticed was that yeh you can indeed bt many many programs these days, with decent dl rates.

like back in the day when i knew bt i never dled programs because they had shitty seeds and it was just so tedious to have to make sure something was real, and also download it. But now everyones sharing shit, which is pretty good i guess (for the less rich).

So once again I did not do anyh job apps today lol. tomorrow!

query

oh btw, is anyone tech head enough to explain to me why the fuck my C: drive uses up 133 gb; when a select all, right click, properties of all the files reveals files and folders adding to 110 gb (hidden files shoudl be on). like ok hibernation takes up 2gb and shit. but what the fuck, 20 gigs of space unaccounted for? (or rather my intelligence shrouds my ability to comprehend where the fuck this space has gone)

it woudln't be shiting me if my hdd wasn't 140gb large in size lol. and so the perofrmance of my laptop is slowing down. which is kinda shitting me lol. i really ceeb reformat. need to apply for jobs.

and like i have externals, but dam my pictures take up too much space lol. it gets inconvenient to run just like pictures from an external lol. meh i guess this is the result of over-indulging in technology lol

story for the kids

another shit story

today went to ikea to eat breakfast

i was alreayd half dead. couldn't sleep

tried to make myself tired by watchign movies till 3 rolled in bed for like two-three unsuccessful hours

so i went to eat like 2.95 breakfast with mum and dad at like 10

and tag a long with them for some shopping

which was ok sincei haven't done so for a while.

then while we're walking around , i feel this need to take a dump. but im like oh ok. not desperate atm, since i have a fair level of control. lol

so was at coles and i was like fucking lol shit attack. and so i walked tensely towards the toilet. it didn't help that my muscles were still sore from thursday training.

and i could feel it wasn't just a fart. if i unclenched anymore shit would really come out. so keeping my ass clenched i walked into the toilet which was conveniently right next to coles.

the inconvenience was the occupied cubicle and the alternative out-of-order one next to it. that was rather inconvenient.

Deciding that yeh I can hold out for a bit, I won't dirty the out-of-order one, i decided to wait. i don't think i've ever waited to take a shit in a public place. im pretty good with control. and coincidentally if i am needy, i don't need to wait. but here im thinking. oh my god. my ass was becoming really uncertain about its ability to hold in what wanted to come out.

then i started thinking. omg this guy in there. but then i had this mental battle with myself about me controlling this shit, and theres no need to panic, coz like this guy couldn't possibly know i needed to take a shit, should just let him be. well a lot of thoughts crossed my mind, even some scenarios. but i was certain that i would not need to use the out-of-order toilet, and i coudl clench some more. at this stage the clench was a full on clench, there was no longer internal forces holding the shit back, it was full on external ass muscles. i could feel it.

In the art of faeci secretion my ability to understand the internal properties of the particular batch is quite adept. But this was a weird one.

So anyway the guy walks out. some asian man with glasses, and im just thinking take your fucking sweet time. but decided not to flame him too much coz he coudlnt' have known i was on the verge of exploding. so in i go.

and boom release.

was good.

but felt weird.

details probalbly unecessary.

lol

but from those details i became confused.loll now in my head im thinking how interesting this topic woudl be to everone.

ok so anyway we then continued our way to another place. and i again needed to release an aftershock. my impatience has its side effects.

so the aftershock i decided to wait it out, but then it was just pscyhological which pisses me off, coz after the first release the feeling you have that theres more slowly disappears, and usually i acknoledge this and gtfo, but yeh i ended up playing quadrapop on my phone lol.

but yeh.

this was probalbly the most significant thing that happened to me today. thought i shoudl share it.

besides seeing a really decent checkout chick at ikea.

oh the moral of the story is. ikea food... think twice. personally i really think it was the ikea food.

actually it could've been the really shitty coffee that came with it. coz it basically hot milk and "coffee". and hot milk is my digestive arch-enemy. well you coudl say friend since it basically just comes out too fucking soon after in a very inconvenient form.

lawl

Australia ftw