finished

finished. feeling is overatted.

had insomnia thinking about my excitedness and what i coudl do.

overrated

tired. lots stuff to apply for and do before leaving. so hectic.

meet up tomorrow yes?

GEM's new album

is fail.

shes still hot though :D

aftereffects of fail exam

LOl omg.

hot day,

humid day,

early wake up

late sleep

SPECIFIC FUCKIGN QUESTIONS

worst shit out.

i actually studied hard for this exam, iw as quite happy with my scope of knowledge and thye come and pull these random specific tricksy shit on me.

half the shit i studied wasn't in the fucking exam. fuck them. seriously.

what the fuck are they trying to prove man.

what the fuck.

i bought the fuckgin textbook for 137 dollars read it, i fuckign read the text book . well the certain chapters relevant.

full made notes, fucking went through questoins heaps and slides made my own notes. and shit AND WTF DO THEY GIVE ME. SOME BULL SHIT SPECIFIC BULLSHIT based on randomp shit thats not on the fucking course. WHAT THE FUCK.

seriously.

what the fuck.

finance major. hope i dont' have to repeat subject next sem.

hayfever bit me again today fucked me up real good

thanks.

aftereffects of successful exam

ok so chinese was a breeze lol

topic was something like

一场精彩的演出。 - a very intriguing performnace

and although nothign to do with my essay.

i tweaked it a bit - coz basically the story is about the boy that has aweosme bringing up but gets emotionally fucked when his parents die. and then i comment about it in like one paragraph at the end of the piece saying how people have weaknesses and i will overcome them.

well in the exam i just say the story that i wrote was a play/act and i was overwhelmed. i basically just added one sentence to link it lol

prtty good.

-exam fun fact

my seat number was 755, and iw as so excited when i went in, that i went and sat at 744, and then sat down got my shit and felt good. and was like aweosme. and this was like the front seat of everything. lol and then some dude says hey i thik this is my seat, and im look at my hand and it says 755, and then i look at the tag it says 744, and im like oh "woops, my bad" but really happily for unkwon reason, so basically i just fooled myself. lol i apologise again and proceed to find my seat, while people are wondering why the fuck did i just get up lol.

anyway then i came home and did jack shit of rlike 7 horus. well actually im still doing jack shit.

this is disapointing man. i was relaly tired when i got hom, but now im really not in like study mode. i dunno why. its weird. its acutally quite weird. i mean well yeh.

the amounts of time i porn during exam period is like massive fluctuation compared to normal. dunno why. but its not study that turns me on. or maybe its like some sor tof reward system. lol or maybe lack of seeing girls dunno.

my pre exam essay composition

无名孩子

在一个雾蒙蒙的早上，他躲在空荡荡的房子里，精神又空虚又烦闷。从窗口透进的一线阳光，穿过烟头发出的烟雾，照着一副相片。一位头发乱蓬蓬，却有着面孔使人喜爱的君子，旁边站着一位美丽娇艳的姑娘，中间坐了一个样子轻狂的小孩，抱着当时最疼爱的洋娃娃。

对平常人来说，他的前景显得十分优越。家中的生意向来都顾客盈门，从达到墨尔本此今他父母生活得一帆风顺。他也享受到高等的教养，在家里也有几位工人又早到晚伺候他，服侍他。

他很开心，很满足，使别人羡慕。有了万世师表的教师，他父母及他们严密的监督，仿佛是塑造出了一个鹤立鸡群的人才。

可惜，好景不长，意外免不得。在反复无常的天气下，一双完善的父母被狂风暴雨出了车祸，离开了人间。

这件事对他有极大心理的影响。他再三对自己解释：“只是一场梦，醒了之后就会没事，醒了之后，他们就会活生生地站在我前面。”饭又不吃，人又不见，连银行财经的工作都停止了，每天都是这样过，无所事事地躲在房子里。

看他凄凉惋惜的样子，困在房子里，亲朋戚友想方设法都无法解除他的抑郁。

尽管收到最丰富的监督，最好的学历，但人此中都有弱点。我要意识到我的弱点，面对它，接受它，解除它。我不会像这位无名孩子一样，躲在自己的世界，自暴自弃。

so basically, im gonna rewrite this essay no matter what topic comes up. lol

hopfully it works :D

in the club

I’m so fucked up. They took my I.D. I don’t know anyone here. Are you getting another bottle? This is MY song! I came here to see you. I’m so hung over. He’s my boyfriend, you have to let him in. Where’s the bathroom? Can I borrow your wristband? I love this bar, it’s like Cheers. They party harder in Europe. He creeped me out. Can we smoke in here? I know the DJ. Where is there to go on a Saturday? Is he gay? I’m not paying to get in. My phone’s dead. I’m not photogenic. I added you on Facebook last week. Where’s the afterparty? I only drink sugar free Red Bull. I love you. Let’s go get breakfast. I work here. How are you getting home? The drinks are so expensive here. How’s my make-up? I don’t have to drink to have fun. Oh my God, it’s so hot downstairs. Excuse me, where’s coatcheck? I only have 2 dollars for a cab. I’m on the list. Lady Gaga is here. I never go to Brooklyn. I can’t drink tequila. Sorry, I don’t play hip-hop. Get her some water. This party was over 6 months ago. I can’t believe what time it is already. She hates me. You want a bump? My shoes hurt. You took my picture 3 years ago. Where can I get some of the ‘White Lady’? We broke up last week. I have to work tomorrow. I’m so fucked up.

whenever someone says any of above to you... you need to tell them...
bitch shut the fuck up

burned out, demotivated, confused, can't be fucked, opportunity cost, realisation of fuckedness

i can't be fucked lol.

i wake up at 12 today after sleeping at like 3 after 5 hours of random net surfing. and now i can't be fucked. lol i haven't done anythign yet. lol fucking hell.

this is the burn out phenomenon. the thing that fucks me up every time.

actually no im going to study now.

such a nice day.

fucking hell

highs & lows

feeling pretty low right now... things were looking good for me, but yesterday i travelled to globe warehouse, got there. spent like 20 minutes... and hurt my left wrist (again? did i hurt my right wrist last time? can't remember). couldn't sleep... hurts like shit,
i think i'll be out for at least 3~4 days. I can't even lift my left hand at the moment.

I guess it gives me more time to do other shit such as: get new passport, book flight, finish off all the AIESEC work for the year... the company has being lagging, and i'm almost at my deadline and everyone is calling and nagging me lolz... some guy from south africa called my home phone at 8am asking for an interview and i was like DUDE... how did you get my number.
and another guy called my mobile at 2am... fml.

going roy morgan tmr lolz $$ hopefully i just get a briefing and go home, will apply for more volunteer soon,

the videos have being going quite sweet, i got shitloads of footage to sort out.... woo iphone 4 hd woo...
signing off.

j@ck.

archiving

lol so i was taking a break from studying, instead of watching porn, watching movie, reading manga, chatting to people, doing whatever else is possible to procrastinate,

i went through my portable harddrive to chekc out my old files. i don't rmember hwy.. i was tryign to free up space. lol yeh so i've been saving every single piece of schoolwork since year 7. coz thats what my sister did as well. so naturally i copeid her.

and i found this relaly fucking interesting piece of english creative writing for year 8. which basically expressed my feelings about the day in really lols english. it was like 4 thousand words long. im quite surprised myself lol. (i have'nt changed that much)

and i also found some other stories. lol man its so good to read back on that shit and laugh at yourself lololol. as i will with this blog one day. as i have with xanga etc. lol

but Esepcially the fact that my english was so lol back then. can't spell half the shit/express half the shit i want to say. and just using microsoft synonyms to have alternate adjectives which i clearly had no idea what it meant.

yeh kinda wish i had made a document every yera about the shit going on.

coz i've forgotten. like half the shit i recall without evidence is not necessarily true anymore, coz people forget shit. lol and i happen to be such an entity.

and theres that period where i thought it d be fun to learn to forget thigns. because it seemed so much more difficult than trying to remember things.

i reckno they're equally matched.

like remembering large bits of information can be difficult eg exams. forgetting something embedded in your memory is quite difficult like your name. lol i reckon the latter is more difficult lol

but i guess for the sake of the corporate world such hobbies wouldnt' be exactly ideal; nevertheless its something i can fuck with on the holidays. :D

exam prep

i notice that i haven't been hating on anything lately.

thats coz im a peaceful person.

my study is planned and ready.

applying for

JET program because it will be luls if i go to japan.

i just wanna get outa melbournes if i dont' have a job. as if stay here to bum.

i dunno if its lucky or not, but going to shanghai/hk 18/11-12/12 for funsies

will be cool with my new dvcam and my half alive camera (yes its half alive. optimistic me) though

oh and like less than 500 dollars to spend lolololol fucking. will be luls oh well hopefully when i come back, i find a job somewhere real quick, or just go out minimally. man even transportation costs money fuck me lol.

hopefully in chawna i'll get a 1tb hdd so i can have more space to put my shit. i have a lot of shit atm.

lolz

the end of ONE subject

woot finally finished my group report for anz.

that was one long fucking journey.

spent at least 10 hours a week with group meetings and shit and workign at home.

probably spent at least 30 hours EDITING only. liek fuckk. and its only fucking 60% lol so not worth the effort.

BUT NOW ITS DONE. 21,375words 117 pages. hohoho.

and now to nag the guy to give us reference letters :D